I wrote you in love & sincerity. I could not see nor can I, where I was not doing as you directed. If I am all wrong & must suffer God pity me, for I am clinging to Him. If the Students have reported me as "not doing anything for the causeEditorial Note: The cause of Christian Science.," let them follow me & see my heavy cross & my perfect self-renunciationAs Written:self renunciation & devotion to HisEditorial Note: God cause, and they would try to lighten As Written: ligthen my burden by giving me the love & sympathy I merit. I dare not write lest I may not be understood. Again I say I will do all I can for you & the causeEditorial Note: The cause of Christian Science.; and promise you I will not again err by going to you with requests. I shall not practice if I am as you say, mesmerized, for I will not follow evil and if I can'tAs Written:cant' see the right the best thing is to quietly stay in my home. I fear to move. I have not, nor never had any inclination to do wrong, and I have now no feeling but love for you & all the dear ones whom I was happy to call brothers & sisters I only regret having pained you but I had no idea I was doing it till I got your first letter. I have been making strict investigation since, and have prayed unceasinglyI Thess 5:17 Pray without ceasing. . God will lead me out; if no human hand is stretched towards me. Of course if I am wrong, I am not worthy to meet with you tomorrow, and much as I should enjoy it, I would not intrude. Do with me as seems, best; I am humble as a child. If I am not worthy to meet with the Association I will not. I wish to make all things right in regard to tuition, and shall very soon I trust. I know I ought to have paid it long ago but I had too many charity patients because I was afraid of the love of money, which is the root of evilI Tim 6:10 For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows. .
Now with love and begging you to believe me I am trying to do right and strong in GodEph 6:10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. , keeping close to Him & feeling His presence every moment
Your loving & would-beAs Written:would be faithful Student
Will you please give this to Colon Smith and ask him to send Journal to Mr E. A. Bailey. Lewiston MaineAs Written:ME