I do not find that good results attend my reading the Christian Science SeriesEditorial Note: Between May 1, 1889 and April 15, 1891, the Christian Science Series was available as a bi-monthly publication. The second periodical to be issued by the Christian Science Publishing Society, it joined The Christian Science Journal, which had entered circulation on April 14, 1883. Journal editor Joshua F. Bailey started the Series, which consisted mostly of reprints of articles from the Journal. Some original pieces were also included. Articles by Mary Baker Eddy were also republished in these volumes. Lasting for just about two years, the Series was discontinued several months after Sarah J. Clark became the Journal’s new Editor in November 1890., nor the circulation of them. The effect is to make persons who read them, dizzy and confused.

I have never seen or felt this effect upon myself or others from your other writings when I have handled animal magnetism. If I am at fault, telling you will rectify it. I have been trying for three months. The words in these Series seem to be yours, and yet not yours.

There is another point I wish to speak of to you.

You remember that I had this belief of "Organization" in MontrealEditorial Note: Montreal, Quebec, Canada and that with severe tenderness you stripped the veil from my eyes, letting me see awful error of that and other beliefs. Then, when the acuteness of the suffering was over, I saw why the church in AugustaEditorial Note: Augusta, Maine had stood, and the one started wrong in Montreal had to stop.

And I saw the malicious arguments of Free LoveEditorial Note: The “Free Love” movement began in the 19th century and aimed to free romantic and sexual unions from marriage laws and state and religious control. Relationships were to last only as long as the partners found them desirable, and women were to have complete control over their own bodies, including whether or not to have children. Adherents of the movement saw it as a way of empowering women, but others noted that it was a movement dominated by male voices that did little to alter mainstream gender norms and left women in a more perilous legal position. as I had never seen it before, or dreamed of its claims.

Then I went to ClevelandEditorial Note: Cleveland, Ohio to save others from the dangers you had averted for me. In a measure I succeeded –

but feeling that I did all I ought, there, I wrote an article in June for the July Journal from the depths of my own experience on these points.

The Editor declined publishing it. Had it appeared in the July Journal, I believe much suffering would have been prevented, for of what value is such sharp experience as attends me, if it is only to help me!

I am constantly hearing the report that I do not care enough for the CauseEditorial Note: The cause of Christian Science. to write for the Journal, and as constantly receiving letters from many places, begging me to write. I deserve all this because I have not obeyed y [?] Unclear or illegible our order and sent first my articles to you.

I forgot to do so, and this too was where the enemy reached me. Now I see in the Sept. Journal, Page. 308 somebody wants all articles on mesmerism suppressed–Editorial Note: See paragraph by C. P. S. on page 308 of the September 1889 issue of The Christian Science Journal. Then again on Page 310– an article signed R. H. M. taking up Science & HealthEditorial Note: Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy in the way it does seems a bad omen– I am going to answer both of those articles and get it ready for OctoberEditorial Note: There are no articles by Josephine Curtis Woodbury in the October 1889 issue of The Christian Science Journal or in following issues., also the question of money on Page 306–Editorial Note: See the paragraph at the bottom of page 306 of the September 1889 issue of The Christian Science Journal. I believe that now you have spoken publicly against Organization from the human stand pointCorrected:standpoint, the error will be destroyed in the minds of the loyal students.

After you had cured me, I could not go on with them. but I have done what I could to show them what you had saved me from. It is six months since I went to Montreal. I have been trying all this time to be freer myself from error before I again took up my work there– I do not dread to go again as I did.

I owe all to you– All the joy of learning that God is Love – Oh my Mother I am constantly being blessed by your agony. I know I am more worthy than a year ago to sign myself