I got as far as addressing you Tuesday, as you will see by date, then my heart failed me. knowing how your time is taken, but I do so want your advice, that I am going to write to you.

I had a patient named Julius Cole,– a traveling As Written: travelling salesman. He was in Kansas sixty days, veryAs Written:vey sick in belief. He was under two different physicians while there. When he came back they came for me I went to him once, then he came to me His belief was fearful pains in head sleeplessness etc.

I found he was financially distressed and took no pay after the first three treatments – that I returned to him – It seemed slow but by degrees he improved till he called himself well,– (during the course of his treatment he lost his position and was very despondent As Written: despendent ,–) and for a week he stopped coming then his wife came for me and said, he seemed to be paralyzed As Written: parylealised I went to him once, the next three days he came to me and then seemed wandering and growing As Written: grwing worse. I knew it was the appearance, and worked as faithfully to impart the truth as it was possible for me to do. I went to see him again that night and they had decided to call a physician of course that ended it for me but Mrs Eddy you who understand so well, What is amiss with me that I could not destroy the belief, when I knew he had no mind to lose, and no muscles to be paralyzed As Written: paralysed .?

Could I have harmed him ignorantly?

His wife gave me points I did not know of before when she came to me, (stricture et ceteraAs Written:&c. I knew he had been drinking but stopped. and I took up every possible thing I could think of, but that last day– Monday– he seemed to grow worse rapidly–

It is a severe blow to me and I have searched myself through, and through, to find what I am doing that is not right; I gave him treatments every day for more than a month. He was a man about forty I should say.

It has cast a spell of fear over me that I do not destroy

Will you write to me if it is only a few words? I make a constant study of Science and H–Editorial Note: Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy and know every word is the truth, and seek, for the understanding, "the spirituality". and "the fidelity to truth", that shall place me where I can see I ought to be.