I am very anxious to receive information, advice, in one word – aid – from you.

After several years of sickness I was made well by that blessed worker, Miss Ellen Brown, C.S. of Chicago Since my return last Dec.

I have been comforted and helped by your books, Science & HealthEditorial Note: Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy - Gleams of light have perhaps intensified the seeming darkness and lack of understanding but have in no wise lessened my desire to walk in the TruthIII John 1:4 I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk in truth. - My dear Mrs. Eddy resting in that assurance be patient with one seeks to know but has not yet the fullness of faith.

I had a talk with Miss Brown before leaving CEditorial Note: Chicago, Illinois - She told me then that, at some time, and in some way she believed the opportunity for me to take the Lectures would be given me. If to mortal mind it then seemed impossible, it seems even more so now. Both Father and Brother, are without work and cannot help me while I am entirely without money. Having made that statement I am oppressed with the uselessness of writing this letter, yet my longing to hear from you will not longer be silenced, and I know shall be more content, after having written - If I had the money, so that from a financial point of view it made no difference whether I failed or succeeded I know I would go to Boston, take the course, and then, if through me, the sick could be well, and the sorrowful comforted, I would so gladly enter upon the work. But that is not the case, I can see no open way. The statements in your books which I, do not understand, the fears that I can never understand, fully accept and demonstrate confront me even, as I write.

Perhaps you understand the doubts, the fears, the hopes even better than I can tell them, and will know whether it is best for me to think of the possibility.

I am twenty-sixAs Written:twenty six, a member, of the Baptist Church, and have really known, do know, what it is to rejoice in the goodness of God. My old work seems to belong to the past, and I feel, as if I could never again take it up; the years of my sickness are as a dream, and the few months since my return have been simply months of waiting.

Necessity not only for my own support but to aid those who so kindly, and bravely helped me during my illness makes it impossible longer to wait, even if my desire did not call me to be up and doing.

I must work but I long to do something for others.

Does the course in Mental Practice”, qualify one to heal? Must one understand and accept, all points in Theology as taught by you, before being able to heal?

How long must one remain and how long can one remain at the College? I do not feel as if three weeks could possibly fit me to go forth to the work. My great distance from BostonEditorial Note: Boston, Massachusetts, adds much to the traveling expenses. I know of the $10000Editorial Note: $100.00 in 1885 is the equivalent of $2,635.64 in 2019. reduction because of distance - Will you please tell me how much money I must possess before deciding to start. I can find out about RailwayAs Written:Ry. fare but would like to know as regards the Lectures, board and contingent expenses.

Is one justified in running in debt, even to be able to do this work, not knowing that they will ever be able to repay the same. I don’t know that I could borrow if I wished and it seems hardly right to try.

I have a dear friend and neighbor who will probably come and take the course provided I can, and do -

Mrs. Eddy please say to me just the things I need most to hear, and so help me who has grown to love you in thought -