My experience the past year has been a constant warfare, whnich could not be [?] Unclear or illegible  faught Corrected: fought with carnal weaponsII Cor 10:4 (For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;) . I am in the college with Mrs Eddy When I first came here I had such a fear of her that I [?] Unclear or illegible  did not like to be in a room with her, but when alone in my room and my thoughts were clear I could see her in the right light and felt that I was highly favored to [?] Unclear or illegible be with her, then at other times I would have such a feeling of dislike towards her that I would think that she was a hard master and I could not please [?] Unclear or illegible  her and would [?] Unclear or illegible  not live with her, notwithstanding I had promised her I [?] Unclear or illegible  would stay with her as long as she wanted me to stay with her.

And no [?] Unclear or illegible w for the last three months I have been looking for God to open the way so I could leave without breaking my word and feel that [?] Unclear or illegible  I was doing his Will, and all the while I am convinced that ist is God's Will that I should stay here, and that it is for my good and will be the means of fitting me for better and greater greater and better service in His [?] Unclear or illegible  Vineyard A Student

Martha E Morgan

In my service for Mrs Eddy I have been so blinded by mesnerism Corrected: mesmerism that I have done many things just contrary to what she told me to do. I will mention some of them Last week I was fixing over a dress for her and cut the basque ofCorrected:off toCorrected:too short, then I took some lace that came off from the dress that she intended to use again and cut that and trimed Corrected: trimmed a dressing sack with it thinking it was some she had laid out for that purpose In her kindness to me she gave me some money and said she wanted me to go to Jordan & Marsh's and get me a nice black brocaded Silk but instead of that I went into the first store I came to and got my dress, and I got deceived in the material [?] Unclear or illegible  then I saw my mistake and wished I had followed her directions, Oh how clearly I can see now how much we need a guid Corrected: guide in this Sea of Mortal Mind, and God has given us one in her to whom he has revealed the Way and if we do not follow her directions we shall suffer loss and shall be held responsible for what we could have done for the advancement of His causeEditorial Note: The cause of Christian Science.