I can tell you a word through Mrs. Otis but not through mail why I relinquish so desirable a situation as you have found for me. I God can do all things and enable us to. But Jesus cautioned us to "count the cost"Luke 14:28 For which of you, intending to build a tower, sitteth not down first, and counteth the cost, whether he have sufficient to finish it? Luke 14:29 Lest haply, after he hath laid the foundation, and is not able to finish it, all that behold it begin to mock him, Luke 14:30 Saying, This man began to build, and was not able to finish. If only I could be sure that my son and Mr. Frye would stand the fire upon them [?] Unclear or illegible if I was there I would go without another word. But when I went there last Spring I was in belief tenfold strronger in health than now.

This belief I must master and if I should have the awful trial with the aforenamed that I had then I feel as if I could not do as I should do for myself and the honor of God. But His grace is sufficien [?] Unclear or illegible tII Cor 12:7 And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure. II Cor 12:8 For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me. II Cor 12:9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. II Cor 12:10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.

If only I knew that BostonEditorial Note: Boston, Massachusetts or the suburbess was the place that God wants me to go to I would go without further counting the cost "But I cannot yet be sure of this It is as saith the Psalmist "very tempestuous round about Him"Ps 50:3 Our God shall come, and shall not keep silence: a fire shall devour before him, and it shall be very tempestuous round about him. , — just now, and what seems the way at one timese does not at another. Let it rest as it is with no furthur Corrected: further action. Keep yourselves calm and leave me out of thought and tell my son to do so; and then, after this, I can see clearer, perhaps, the way.