Yours just receivedEditorial Note: This letter is not extant.. I cannot make it all out, but will say, it was by no means my time that I would consider on the case, I would give you a week of time, but I was sick myself, so many minds had centered on meEditorial Note: Evidence indicates that Eddy was extremely sensitive to the mental atmosphere surrounding her and could be debilitated by it if her spiritual defenses were at the time not adequate. that I was not able to help any one much and am not so yet. I reached the dear little one but could not do for her as I would. Now dear Cousin, this is the fact in the case, that unless the sick relieve me of so many minds calling on myAs Written:my alone for help I shall finish my work here soon. I rose from the grave as it were when I got up by means of my discoveryEditorial Note: A reference to Eddy’s healing of the effects of a severe accident in February 1866, through reading a healing by Jesus in the Bible. She considered this event a catalyst in her discovery that spiritual laws of God help and heal., and never since have been able to keep myself in health under the pressure of the minds of the sick, it takes me down every time; hence I chose the calling that I could follow and that was discovery. and thus I can show all who study with me how to help themselves and othersEditorial Note: This is one possible explanation of Eddy’s leaving of the public practice of Christian Science and devoting herself to teaching others to be effective Christian healers., more than this I cannot do. Now if you knew what I suffer for the sick by this constant call on me that I have every hour through the mail and otherwise, you, I think, would pity me. I have not slept two hours in the night for two nights past, and vomit every thing I eat; and the only way I can save myself is to get away from this atmosphere of mind or the the call minds of the sick I did think when Miss Webster knows all this, she was a little unfeeling towards me not to have explained to you I shall be an invalid again confined to my bed unless some of my students take some of these burdens on themselves and so relieve me Dr Spofford going into the book business has left for a week past the minds of the patients all on me hence my sufferings Mr McLauthlin I felt etc etc until I suffer more now than one of them and was trying to get a diversion in my favor the day Miss Webster called