⇉ Handshift:Jessie C. H. Gorham * Laura expressly told me to leave these last few pages of 3rd chapter for others to finish, and insisted upon it- There suddenly appeared an unbelievable "concert of action" between printer and linotypist, to cause other errors to appear in the same line wherein I had called for correction NumberAs Written:No. 1. This occurred repeatedly. Determination to have passages go out from me incorrect, however much I might correct, showed in their very eyes; and, reading the situation, I seemed about floored. When she insisted, I gave up. What was a "plain Christian ScientistAs Written:CS" compared to a determined group of CSD'sEditorial Note: Those who held a Doctor of Christian Science degree. backed by "their" employees desirous of holding their respective "jobs"?
But Mother saw farther than was supposed. Somewhat refreshed when the foregoing message arrived, I gladly went over from my office to the Publishing House to get the indicated pages. He (B), who had transferred everything to Cambridge, stoutly assured me with energetic double repetitions,
"Everything, that you had anything to do with, is destroyed. Not a page of your work is left standing."
Upon my producing Mrs. Eddy's request, disclosing the opposite fact, he went wordless to the vault, extracted & with a very black look handed out the specified pages.
Mother, bless her! had neatly nullified that deliberate lie, & held those three chapters standing, in vindication of the wisdom of her choice of assistant, & to Miss Gorham's credit for all time. If I could only have understood certain looks and words and acts of hers touching those erroneous manifestations in the guise of people then, as I do todayAs Written:to-day!
G.

# The fact here implied, directly stated, has helped me, too, to bear silently the supreme injustice and bide God's time and way. The whole page shows Mother to have seen more than "the four" thought – in spite of their determination to let no word from me reach her after Laura found, throughAs Written:thro' Dec 8 check, that "double" letters were conveying to me Mrs. Eddy's approval hidden from jealousy. Laura declared, furiously, "She's got to stop that!"
I may destroy this whole letter– it is not for public consumption anyhow– but will first record: It was not the work that threw me upon that sickbedAs Written:sick bed. Even their putting a cot in the PublishingAs Written:Pub. House to save me, give me a nap when possible throughAs Written:thro the "all-hours" work, was only a blind– to show how "inadequate" I was and "how hard they tried to help me!" What were the facts about the lie? These:—
Mr. A. said to me, in so many words: "I am not a printer, and never shall be one. She is not going to come into BostonEditorial Note: Boston, Massachusetts, and load us down with printing her works in addition to all the rest we have to do. We'd never have a Journal out on time if she was here; and its bad enough as it is, without the presence of her works or herself to make it any worse. She'll never do that while I'm around!" Then he laughed, even rather boyishly, and concluded with the partly jesting admission, "She may walk over my dead body, of course – but she'll never do it any other way!!!"
The real need was, and had been – not to put up a cot for me after I was "exhausted" and had to lie down in order to work, but – to let me have those right leads and other spacings and Italics from the first, to make the whole set-up from the start what I finally secured in the first three chapters completed as they stand todayAs Written:to-day, long after publication, and after other corrections are made. ¶ With that done, the entire bookEditorial Note: Miscellaneous Writings, 1883-1896 by Mary Baker Eddy would have been finished, in good order, long before the rest of the galleys – quantities of them, set up without these necessities – and balance of ManuscriptsAs Written:MSS went to Cambridge to be finished, and let it look that "those Christian Scientists don't know enough to publish a book, for all they think they know so much!" ¶ But otherwise, she and her work could not be blocked out of Boston by A. & B. That was the whole secret. ¶ Even as it was, I told A. B. & S. that if Cambridge would rush the Poems while we rushed the balance,– now we had essentials,– we would yet finish the book in good shape well within two weeks, more, which would have delighted Mother. They would not take the message that would have comforted her; but, instead, took the whole balance to Cambridge as stated, and I received this letter from her. ¶ How I did need to know there was absolutely no basis of Truth or elsewhere for all that misguiding M.A.M. victimizing us & her if possible!!! Jessie Gorham.
A.= Armstrong
B.= Bates
S.= Sargent