Your words of love are ever before me and I sometimes wonder what inspiration urges you on to make such efforts for me who feel so uterly Corrected: utterly unworthy of such love and care. I know you will always understand me in a way that no one else ever can or does and your words of tonight show me this plainer than ever- Now I want to say just a little to right what may seem to be wrong – I have not now or ever doubted you or your work. but when under great pressure of circumstances did make the remark, "That I should lose faith in you and everything else if things went on so."

I remember distinctly of saying this but entirely forgot it as [?] Unclear or illegible  [?] Unclear or illegible  was afterward explained that I did or could not comprehend at the time–

Now Darling I have ever loved you and shall to the end of time, and I want you to always tell me when you see me wrong for you do know and see so much that we wh [?] Unclear or illegible o are more material cannot- I do confess that I have not worked as faithfully as I ought but I thought I was at the time- When I met sickness in belief, I was in a hurry to get rid of it and so would rise and conquer as best I could, but when I met beliefs of pleasure, I loitered, and when I met death I turned and ran away – all this I mean in Mind – I think you will understand what I mean–

Now I will try and do better and shall try and make myself more worthy of the commendation of my Teachers and more worthy the commendation of God–

Dear teacher I have so often wanted to ask you this – Do I do right in aspiring to teach this ScienceEditorial Note: Christian Science in years to come and I even hope and think in time that I may be able to lecture if I work true and faithful- It is not a very inviting labor when I see how the world treat you but it does not make me flinch or turn from the "Mark of our high c Calling."Phil 3:14 I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.

It seems almost absurd for me to speak of such [?] Unclear or illegible  a thing now when I have overcome so little but I want you to know that I am wedded to this great Truth and I know that "God" has a great work for me to do and it is to come from you. This is becoming more and more apparent to me every day I live and this is why I am called to such experiences–

I hope you will forgive me for all the wrong I have done in thought word or deed — I did want to say this word ere – you went away and hope sometime you may deem it worthy a reply —