I dont Corrected: don’t know what to say or do from one day to another in such a chemicalEditorial Note: A reference to “chemicalization.” Chemicalization is a term Eddy used to refer to a temporary stirring up of symptoms or process of “fermentation” as errors of various types are being destroyed. as this. The very plan that is best for today, the next will require to be changed

These moral periods are like sickness, you need to see the patient every day until a change is established and I cannot support my expenses and give all my time as I am doing. The select number is only from those whom I shall teach. I know it is not best for me to give lectures gratuitously. It lowers the standard that I have reached, and the world shall acknowledge some day. If within two weeks I can lecture three times before an audience of 30 at $1 00Editorial Note: $1.00 in 1882 is the equivalent of $25.23 in 2016. for each hearer, I will go to LawrenceEditorial Note: Lawrence, Massachusetts for I have lost my second chance to lecture by not being able to get packed at home and away in time. I am hindered all the time with calls so I get nothing done Miss Brown was here today to get help of course although she does not say so. Two thirds of my time for the last ten years has been given to those students who have listened to my advice only to save them from sickness or their patients from death and then to go away and abuse me the first chance and at the beck of the mesmerists and then come back when their evil deeds makes them sick, to be healed by me

No pay, no thanks, nothing but dissimulation is due to me in their minds under fire. I saw Mrs Day yesterday. Morton has never answered my letter asking him for one half his tuition and it has been two years since he studiedEditorial Note: Joseph Morton took a class with Mary Baker Eddy in May 1880. The other members of the class were Mrs. Frye, Caroline M. Moore, Hanover P. Smith, and Edgar S. Woodbury. for one hundred dollarsEditorial Note: $100 in 1880 is the equivalent of $2,522.96 in 2016.. Miss Sprague ows Corrected: owes me $75Editorial Note: $75.00 in 1882 is the equivalent of $1,892.22 in 2016. and I took her for one hundredEditorial Note: $100 in 1879 (the year Mary E. Sprague took a class with Mary Baker Eddy) is the equivalent of $2,613.78 in 2016.. Now my student, take my advice do not trust them who study, make them pay in advance It will injure the causeEditorial Note: The Cause of Christian Science. if you do

I went with Gilbert clear over to SalemEditorial Note: Salem, Massachusetts Monday eve to a parlor lecture and she never even paid our fare or offered to but had insisted on my going for a long time The Church has paid nothing yet

I will see you some time next week if I have to go to Boston but I must clear my house in a few days and not a chore is done yet towards it I have to attend to calls or answer letters all the time Forgive this complaint it is seldom I utter it