Your letter of 29thEditorial Note: See V01262. is recdExpanded:received

When I took your short paperEditorial Note: This is referring to Mary Baker Eddy’s address, "Unity and Christian Science," which was read to the World's Parliament of Religions at The World's Columbian Exposition in Chicago, Illinois., and the other contributions in behalf of Christian Science and gave them to the Editor of the bookEditorial Note: John Henry Barrows, The History of the World’s Parliament of Religions, 2 vols. (Chicago: Parliament Publishing Company, 1893)., I did it obediently, and so far as I could see, without any will or desire that it should be otherwise

I have told you what transpired at the interview, and I told it because I did not feel that I had any right to withhold it from you

You will see that I stated in my 1st letter, that I did not understand it but that I knew that you would know what to do.

Acting purely in the capacity of agent I felt that I ought to communicate with my principal to the extent of setting forth the facts and let you do the deciding

Never in the cause of my career have I made more earnest effort do Corrected: to do what was honest and business-like Corrected: businesslike - than I have in this whole matter, and the fact that I fail to act wisely, but on the contrary, manifest only, that which is fit for condemnation, shows conclusively, that I am not fitted for such work-

I have never wanted to do it - I am seeking for no fame, emolument, or position, I do not want to regulate the affairs of Christian Scientists nor the causeEditorial Note: The cause of Christian Science.. I do not want prominence. or the applause of men. or to manage any thingCorrected:anything in any way. and why it is that any of these things should be put into my charge is difficult to see. It seems to me that it might [?] Unclear or illegible  be put into the hands of other students here who would not be found wanting -

I wrote to BostonEditorial Note: Boston, Massachusetts, telling them that they must prepare what they thought best to have put into the book, and that I would take no responsibility in the matter, and now all that I can possibly say is this, that although I would greatly prefer having some oneCorrected:someone else appointed to do this work, I will if it is insisted upon, do what I am instructed to do, to the best of my ability-

You told me to send you the short paper, and I did so. I have nothing, now that has been prepared by you-

I have nothing of any kind for the book, and nothing has been given to the Editor save the address of Mr Bonney. - I made some effort to prepare something, but Dr Eddy did not approve of it & the whole matter is at a standstill, and just where it was a month ago-

Now in regard to the page proof. You impressed me at the very first, with the great importance of this- It has always been my expectation that if any paper of yours was given to me for them, I would exact as a condition, before delivery, the promise of a page proof - which when received was to be immediately forwarded to you - and so it was when I spoke to Mr Pipe about it the other day & he said that he would do it

I can and will promise this - that if you send me anything - I will exact this promise, of them and also that on receipt of the page proof I will send it to you - and I promise that I will not delivir Corrected: deliver it unless they will promise as desired

I have no control over the book or any of the stages of its publication, and all that I can possibly promise is, to do what is set for me to do in a faithful and perhaps businesslike way, and use such precautions as are directed or seem essential

I very much hope however that it may be deemed expedient to select some other student to take charge of the whole thing

I supposed that I was not only extremely loyal to your leadership, but that I was intelligently so, or in other words that I had good reason for the faith that was in me. but I am satisfied that you know a great deal more about that than I do, and I therefore accept your rebuke, but it does not seem honest for me to continue to work in some of the positions I have been thrust into, when I do not know enough about ScienceEditorial Note: Christian Science and the ways of error, to see that I am unconsciously working contrary to you and the welfare of Christian Science as a cause

I am condemned by you, hated by the pioneers who say that the work and glory of this thing should have been theirs, whereas the only outcome to me, at every step has been misery

I have been pushed, upon a pedestal, and have fallen, and broken, and am weary & scared and would like to retire to obscurity

I ought to say. concerning my reference to Dr Eddy, that Judge Hanna wrote that the Doctor thought I was inclined to cover too much ground