It was so kind of you to write me such a good letter and I appreciate it and the dear Mothers advice. I will take her advice at once, but will send another letter to shew you what he says about being under Dowie so many years – one who has done more mischief against C.S.Expanded:Christian Science than any oneCorrected:anyone in Chicago. This claim that seems so tenacious defying my work & the work of [?] Unclear or illegible others struck me the way this Church was organized & Mr. Day appointed as Pastor– Mrs. Linscott was Chairman - they appointed me an office & when Mrs. Linscott put th [?] Unclear or illegible e question to me to know if I would accept it the hard switching went into the ear & enterit frightened me, the same day Mr Bell turned from C. S. & from that date my troubles began. When the Mother disorganized at New York Ass. relief came & for ten days I could h [?] Unclear or illegible ear perfect. I heard no ones address there but Dr. Eddy & strange to say I heard every word he said distinctly & all said he spoke lower than any oneCorrected:anyone. At the Mothr Church when she disorganized her Association — [?] Unclear or illegible exquisite relief came into my ears & the day we all spent at Mothers I heard perfect & for a week after returning home the relief was something wonderful– After that a hard bony substance about quarter of an inch long & larger than a pin headCorrected:pinhead came from the left ear & I thought I was healed for good & rejoiced.

I worked night & day to uncover sin in my selfCorrected:myself & others & some of my healing for others is counted marvelous. I have had the best talant Corrected: talent in Mothers Students to try to heal me - Mrs. Noyes. Mrs. Linscott – My Sister – Mrs Larmine. & Mrs. Clarke tried it. I paid them well with money & presents until I have paid out between 800Editorial Note: 800 & 1000.00Editorial Note: 1000 in the last 12 years. I have struggled with that lie until I grew discouraged & then hope would come again & I would press on. The claim of antagonism in my Husband greatly irritated it. Opposition, pride tyranny, temper - self will & every error in the land of SodomEditorial Note: Sodom was a biblical city near the Dead Sea which was destroyed by God because of great wickedness. See Genesis, chapters 18 and 19. has been handled & I have wrestled & prayed. None can know. All the while my sence Corrected: sense of ScienceEditorial Note: Christian Science has been clear No argument could touch me about Mother, S & HEditorial Note: Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy her works or tempt me to obey my Husbands commands to get a Surgion Corrected: Surgeon – ear teubs Corrected: tubes – trumpets or none of his various offerings. I have been faithful to ScienceEditorial Note: Christian Science & sooner would I pass the belief called death than yield to material law or satisfy mortal mind in any respect whatever. I have been scorned, abused - reproached slandered all the way through the BrethrnCorrected:Brethren, but I looked to Principle, turned the deaf ear to the lie & worked on Brethrn Corrected: Brethren would say - "She does such wonderful work in Science "Why don't she heal her selfCorrected:herself of that deafness." Why I do not know, but I know that Mother waited ofon the LordPs 27:14 Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord. & she told me to wait on Him & I mean to do it. My cross has been a heavy one, such as no Student yet has carriedMatt 16:24 ¶Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me. & made so by my dear Husband who should have been my friend – but when I grew to see it was M. A. M using him for [?] Unclear or illegible a tool I was enabled to bear it better & when Christ & Christmas came out - "The picture of the cross wreathed with flowers, the song birdsCorrected:songbirds about it & the Angel faces above it — I was refreshed & since I saw that picture I have not murmured.

I will say la [?] Unclear or illegible st winter Mrs Coleman tried to heal the belief - but the work did no good. I struggled alone many months & the only relief would get is in handling M. A. M. & its seeming workings. Spiritualism mental telegraphy &c. Revelation & realzation Corrected: realization would come with relief – to be followed by renewed attacks. Mrs. Larminie tried many times but she found so much fault with me, was so impatient &c that invariably she did harm & I had to ask her to desist. Last Spring she came to spend the day with me. She, her selfCorrected:herself offered to treat me - & said I have made Mrs Clarke come to my house & she helps me pray pay my expenses & if you will let me treat you month after month I will do it for $15.00Editorial Note: 15 a month though you are able & aught Corrected: ought to pay the full price. I replyed Corrected: replied if you think you can heal me do so & I will pay you. I handed her a few dollars in advance– She tried it a week– I never had a harder week. I sendt her the rest of money for a weeks treatmnt Corrected: treatment and asked her kindly to stop, as I thought could get along better alone. She wrote in haste & sent the money back (which was not Christian) & said she had now discovred Corrected: discovered my sin was the love of moneyI Tim 6:10 For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows. & " money is your God" & ordered me never to bring any of my snares to her so long as I lived. (I did not [?] Unclear or illegible ask her she offered) I sent the money back & she returned it & said "You need it worse than I do & I have nothing to take back. & she said "The Mother will never allow you to come to see her until you overcome" that deafness "– I replyed Corrected: replied The Mother did not teach there was any deafness & the reason she could not heal it she was making such a big reality as to make me think she had to have month after month at 20.00Editorial Note: 20 a month to work on the case. The word artifice came up to handle at that time & so seriously did she hurt me but for Mrs. Noyes I would have passed out. Afterwards I wrote her a sweet, loving letter & told her I would invite her to lunch with a few ScientistsEditorial Note: Christian Scientists & she never replyed Corrected: replied to it. I have not seen her since.

The same week she accused me of money being my only God - I gave $150.00Editorial Note: 150 to the Church two Mothers books to poor women & 5.00Editorial Note: 5 to the Mother Church & 2.00Editorial Note: 2 to a poor Student. & she said Mrs Eddy knew my sin, &c. I do not tell you to complain for I have always loved my Sister Mrs. L. but I do think she has had to some things to meet as well as my selfCorrected:myself & such a way of treatment is never going to heal one like me – Love alone will do the work. When I give all I earn to Science & have done it 12 years I do not think it a just charge to say "Your only God is money & you want it to dress your selfCorrected:yourself & your girls on. When my Husbands appoints an allowance for us all & never a cent of C.S.Expanded:Christian Science money goes to them, but it all goes to the CauseEditorial Note: The cause of Christian Science..When I want you to know this brief account of how I have struggled to be healed. & all the money I paid out for it I have earned healing others, for my Husband never gave me a cent for it or the Cause in any, way shape or form. A man stood in my hall from St LouisEditorial Note: St. Louis, Missouri last week & said - Mrs. Bell – it is nothing sh [?] Unclear or illegible  ort of a miracle what you have done for me & my family. I marvel at your work in my selfCorrected:myself & home daily. [?] Unclear or illegible Last week my work lifted a Lawyer who had been treated first by Mrs Webster - then by Miss Rauch & had to call [?] Unclear or illegible  Doctor He was so ill they sent for me in two days he was up & in my house – his belief inflamation Corrected: inflammation of prostrate Corrected: prostate gland. When Mr. Tomkins letterEditorial Note: See 329A.44.007. came dear Mrs. Blain was trying to help me. She has been so sweet & christian lives near me - & I could call on her if necessary.

She & Mrs. Noyes have been true christians & have helped me at times with kindness & love & have been tender all of which I do appreciate. While Mrs. Blain has helped me she has not removed the obstruction as y [?] Unclear or illegible et, but she thought by patient work she could do it, but says she is willing to release me at once for Mr. Tomkins. After all this struggle & work my selfCorrected:myself, is it any wonder I have no faith that any oneCorrected:anyone can deliver me but Our Mother in IsrealCorrected:IsraelEditorial Note: Mary Baker Eddy. Something must be dissolved

Is it right for Students to advertize Institutes & themselves atas Teachers when Our Mother has given us The Impersonal TeacherEditorial Note: The Bible and Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy are often referred to as the impersonal Pastor. However, this may also be a reference to Miscellaneous Writings 1883-1896, which was published in early 1897. In the March 1897 issue of The Christian Science Journal, Mary Baker Eddy requested that all Christian Science teachers stop teaching for one year so that students could learn exclusively from this new volume.- Is it right for Readers to advertize them selvesCorrected:themselves as Head of flocks, when there is only One Leader & Head.

I sat down with Our – Impersonal Teacher & took 7– to 11 – 12 pages of S & H. Also 2 – 3 – 4 chaps of Ephesians. Also 155 p- of Misselanois Writings & such a grand lesson I did have God is All in All- S & H. for we are His workmanshipEph 2:10 For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them. - He is our peaceEph 2:14 For he is our peace, who hath made both one, and hath broken down the middle wall of partition between us; " – & we are the children of LightEph 5:8 For ye were sometimes darkness, but now are ye light in the Lord: walk as children of light: , a body fitly joinedEph 4:16 From whom the whole body fitly joined together and compacted by that which every joint supplieth, according to the effectual working in the measure of every part, maketh increase of the body unto the edifying of itself in love. having one calling &c.Eph 4:1 I therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, beseech you that ye walk worthy of the vocation wherewith ye are called, Eph 4:2 With all lowliness and meekness, with longsuffering, forbearing one another in love; Eph 4:3 Endeavouring to keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. Eph 4:4 There is one body, and one Spirit, even as ye are called in one hope of your calling; Eph 4:5 One Lord, one faith, one baptism, Eph 4:6 One God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all. stealing, lying & falsehood rebuked & we must in honor prefer one anotherRom 12:10 Be kindly affectioned one to another with brotherly love; in honour preferring one another; – for God is Our Father & Mother- Oh! to studdy Corrected: study it togethr Corrected: together the lesson is glorious- This is confidential & shew it to Mother with my love & gratitude.