I must write you this morning. Save, or I perish!Matt 8:23 ¶And when he was entered into a ship, his disciples followed him. Matt 8:24 And, behold, there arose a great tempest in the sea, insomuch that the ship was covered with the waves: but he was asleep. Matt 8:25 And his disciples came to him, and awoke him, saying, Lord, save us: we perish. Matt 8:26 And he saith unto them, Why are ye fearful, O ye of little faith? Then he arose, and rebuked the winds and the sea; and there was a great calm. Matt 8:27 But the men marvelled, saying, What manner of man is this, that even the winds and the sea obey him! Mark 4:35 And the same day, when the even was come, he saith unto them, Let us pass over unto the other side. Mark 4:36 And when they had sent away the multitude, they took him even as he was in the ship. And there were also with him other little ships. Mark 4:37 And there arose a great storm of wind, and the waves beat into the ship, so that it was now full. Mark 4:38 And he was in the hinder part of the ship, asleep on a pillow: and they awake him, and say unto him, Master, carest thou not that we perish? Mark 4:39 And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. Mark 4:40 And he said unto them, Why are ye so fearful? how is it that ye have no faith? Mark 4:41 And they feared exceedingly, and said one to another, What manner of man is this, that even the wind and the sea obey him? Luke 8:22 ¶Now it came to pass on a certain day, that he went into a ship with his disciples: and he said unto them, Let us go over unto the other side of the lake. And they launched forth. Luke 8:23 But as they sailed he fell asleep: and there came down a storm of wind on the lake; and they were filled with water, and were in jeopardy. Luke 8:24 And they came to him, and awoke him, saying, Master, master, we perish. Then he arose, and rebuked the wind and the raging of the water: and they ceased, and there was a calm. Luke 8:25 And he said unto them, Where is your faith? And they being afraid wondered, saying one to another, What manner of man is this! for he commandeth even the winds and water, and they obey him. What can I do more than I am striving to do? I have indeed sinned against thee and against God. Within the past week I [?] Unclear or illegible have seen the enormity of the error of thinking for a moment that you did not know, without being told by any bodyCorrected:anybody, that we are faithfully striving and winning or have lost our hold and are either ignorantly, willfully or helplessly being drawn into the toils of sin. I can only repeat that I have not wanted to be blind, unjust, unloving, selfish and disobedient. From the very first; I have felt that something was missed by me that I needed to know, in order to endure to the endMatt 24:13 But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved. . I have prayed, listened, worked and waited to the best of my imperfect understanding all the years since Mrs. Roberts lovingly led me to you. I have longed to tell you the horrid things that were planted in my very strongest mortal being by the false teaching that your direct word of Truth might destroy them. I have downed them thousands of time and have often thought them destroyed, only to find them staring me in the face and robbing me of my peace. I mean the lying suggestions that were back of Mrs. Hopkin's and Mrs. Plunket's teaching. "How long, oh Lord how longPs 13:1 How long wilt thou forget me, O Lord? for ever? how long wilt thou hide thy face from me? Ps 13:2 How long shall I take counsel in my soul, having sorrow in my heart daily? how long shall mine enemy be exalted over me? ," before my release shall come.

I seemed to be making some headway when on Saturday Mrs. Colles came in and most lovingly asked if she might help me. For a moment personal sense said, no, but instantly, I saw that it was personal sense, and I said yes, most sincerely. For the first time for months this stony thing that I call heartEzek 11:19 And I will give them one heart, and I will put a new spirit within you; and I will take the stony heart out of their flesh, and will give them an heart of flesh: Ezek 36:26 A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh. for want of another name seemed to soften and I could cry with tears, and hope sprang up and I blessed God and thanked Him for her help. Last night she told me that she had written you and would not go on unless you bade her to do so. I want to know if I have added an unpardonable errorMatt 12:31 ¶Wherefore I say unto you, All manner of sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven unto men: but the blasphemy against the Holy Ghost shall not be forgiven unto men. Matt 12:32 And whosoever speaketh a word against the Son of man, it shall be forgiven him: but whosoever speaketh against the Holy Ghost, it shall not be forgiven him, neither in this world, neither in the world to come. Mark 3:28 Verily I say unto you, All sins shall be forgiven unto the sons of men, and blasphemies wherewith soever they shall blaspheme: Mark 3:29 But he that shall blaspheme against the Holy Ghost hath never forgiveness, but is in danger of eternal damnation: Luke 12:10 And whosoever shall speak a word against the Son of man, it shall be forgiven him: but unto him that blasphemeth against the Holy Ghost it shall not be forgiven. , in permitting this– When the Dunmore'sEditorial Note: Charles A. Murray and Gertrude Murray were staying in ChicagoEditorial Note: Chicago, Illinois, this paper was given them by one of Mr. Kimball's most true and loyal students. They found it so helpful and when they returned to London, they showed it to me and asked if they might give it to other students. The Chicago lady told them that she had been told that it was some instructions you had given to some one of your students. At any rate it is a very helpful thought and I said yes. So many wanted it, I told them they might get the typewriter to make them some copies and pay her for her trouble, which they did. Mrs. Colles said it was all wrong, and so I have recalled the paper and stopped their getting any more. A paper on prayer was given to me two years ago by a C.S.B [?] Unclear or illegible and I was told that it was from you. Afterwards I was told that it was from one of Mrs. Stetson's letters or lessons. Last week a friend sent me a copy of the same paper. She had received it from an old student in BostonEditorial Note: Boston, Massachusetts. I enclose them both to youEditorial Note: These papers are not extant.. If we should not have them please tell me. In the meantime the one in the hands of the students will be destroyed immediately. Dear Mother, I don't want to be disobedient or disloyal. I want only to know and obey God and to truly see and love His Anointed One who has given His message to us anew. I have not wanted to do any thingCorrected:anything wrong. If to do wrong and not know it, and think and honestly believe I am doing right is moral idiocy then I am indeed a moral idiot. Is there no cure for me? I had thought seriously of asking you if I might ask Mrs. Lathrop to help me, so when Mrs. Colles asked if she might I said yes, gladly after the first moment.

Blessed Holy One, I know that you must be guarding these dear students, for they are doing so well. Do not let Mrs. Colles, in her zeal put a thought of any harm coming to them, while I am passing through the fireIsa 43:2 When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee. . I see very little of them, as little as I can without creating a query in their minds. I have always prayed that no student of mine sholuld receive through me any taint of undestroyed error in my thought. God has been good to me, for they are pure, loving, loyal – loyal to you, to Science and HealthEditorial Note: Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy, to Christian Science – students, and if I went off with a circus to-morrowCorrected:tomorrow - they would stand firm in the Truth, although they no doubt would be sorely grieved. The students are not confused or darkened, but there is new light coming to them daily. They are turned to the BookEditorial Note: Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy for their teaching in all things. They do not look in Christian Scien [?] Unclear or illegible tists for Christian Science but in Science and Health and your other writings – and then they are able to see Christian Scientists when they are found in Christian Science. It is a good work here. I have hope because God has used me. That lie of false teaching cannot separate me from you, or from Divine Love. I am my own enemy. No one, not even you could shut me out of Heaven without my acquiescence, conscious or unconscious. You would not. Your love is what is holding me in this crucial hour. Do not give me up. I am trying struggling- Suffering does destroy error, does it not? I can bear it, if that is to be the result. Pray for me dear, Mother. Only your prayers seem powerful enough to prevail. There is no good in this me.Rom 7:18 For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not. Help me to know it truly, then the good will no longer be hidden.